This stupid illness is kicking my butt. Seriously I sleep around 18 hours per day. It just plain sucks right now. My meds are not working as quick/well as I wanted them to and im miserable! I am SO tired of doctors appointments.
Like at my cardiologist appointment last week: He is a great cardiologist but his PA is DUMB! She is 25 years old, just starting out and came and saw me before my doctor came in. I told her my symptoms (she had a blank look on her face the entire time.. no brain?) Then when I tell her I applied for disablility, she asks me, " Wow your so young! Why would you want to be on disability this young in life? Dont you want to live a normal life?"
I wanted to punch her. No, I LOVE feeling like this everyday! I just have 6 specialists so I can waste my time and take a bizillion meds everyday just for the fun of it!
Finally my real doctor came in and told me that I have bradycardia. I was actually pretty surprised because I am used to having tachycardia. He said my pulse in my sleep goes into the 20's sometimes and that is why I am so low on energy most days. So tomorrow I find out when I get my pacemaker! I am happy because its not another damn med to shove down my throat and it might actually make me feel somewhat better.
However, on the downside, my meds side effects just suck. Between the extreme fatigue, dizziness, vertigo, migraines, passing out, and adrenaline surges, I am surprised I am holding up right now.
My weight loss has been really bad too. I just dont feel hungry anymore. I have to force feed myself everyday, so I just drink boost now LOL. So much easier!
Yesterday was a sad day.. Breck moved to California. My stress levels are through the roof right now and between balancing baby and this illness, I might just loose it. To make matters worse I STILL cant drive. Its been almost a year now that I have been behind the wheel and I was really hoping to be able to drive before he left.
Not a happy post but at least my daughter is happy! She is a ball of energy. I swear if I could bottle up a tenth of it I would be in heaven. She runs everywhere and screams at the top of her lungs (no, not crying, just screaming).
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